Monday, May 07, 2007

GBA(s)FC (Growth) Entry #20

A New Start
by Adele Lemon

She stood at the sink washing her hands of the dirt. Drying them on the tea towel, she brushed the hair out of her eyes and looked out the kitchen window. There in the back corner of the yard she could see the seedling she'd just planted, wishing it to grow quicker than she knew it would. Perhaps one day, when it was tall and able to give off shade she could sit underneath it and think about him without feeling the pain. But not today, it was still too soon.

She planted the weeping willow to remind her of the time needed to heal. For a few minutes today she actually forgot about it. The physicality of digging the hole, getting down on her knees to add the fertilizer. Mixing the peat with her bare hands. Taking the cutting of his hair out of her apron pocket and dropping it in the hole. She stood there for a few minutes, looking down before finally placing the seedling on top. This ritual had to mean something, the book said it would.

The book was something she found shortly after it happened. It was almost as if it had been waiting for her. She doesn't remember buying it, but those first couple of days were all a fog. Again she thought about therapy. The stack of pamphlets were still on the counter by the fridge, Dealing With Grief, How To Move On. She just couldn't bring herself to pick up the phone. If she were to seek professional help , then she'd be expected to talk about it. And right now denial was easier.

She went over it again in her head. It wasn't her fault, how could it be? She loved him with all her heart and soul. It was an accident. The hot, stinging tears she cried every night were real. She wouldn't cry if it was her fault would she? Maybe it was the brutality of the investigation that still had her shaken. The way the detective looked at her when he questioned what happened that night. Those questions needed to be asked, it was just routine, the other officer had said as he gently rested his hand on her shoulder.

The tears started again. It seemed so long ago now, that night. That horrible night. She'd get through this with her own strength and she would heal. All she needed was time to forget.

Wiping the tears from her face she walked outside into the back yard to look at the seeding that she'd just planted. Yes time will heal these wounds, she was doing the right thing. She felt the evening sun warm her skin and breathed in the fresh air and she smiled. Next door her neighbour was on the back deck and gave a wave. She waved back and thought - they don't know about the last time. I won't let it happen again.

5 comments:

strugglingwriter said...

You really do a nice job of creating mood here. I liked this line: "Perhaps one day, when it was tall and able to give off shade she could sit underneath it and think about him without feeling the pain."

Good job with this.

goodthomas said...

This was very nice, just lovely. Simple, clean, beautiful.

I loved the lines, the contrast of "She loved him with all her heart and soul. It was an accident."

briliantdonkey said...

I like the revelation that this has happened before and that she doesn't want it to happen again. I just don't know what it was that happened. This could easily be fixed without a word count restriction. A longer story here seems like a good possibility.

::::She felt the evening sun warm her skin and breathed in the fresh air and she smiled.::::

You may(or may not) consider changing this to say ".....warm her skin,breathed in the fresh air, and smiled." Just sounds a bit better in my opinion for what it is worth.

BD

basest said...

good tone...simple. good use of 500 words. bravo!

D J & E Huber said...

Sorta Hemingwayesque. It's different, of course - but it sort of has the same tone/mood as the end of "To Have and Have Not."